Oh yeah, I used to have a blog. I even have the little icon thingy for it on my menu bar. Been awhile since I’ve been here… I wish I could say I’ve missed it, but I think I’ve been too deep in shit to really even think about it much. I had the best [...]
My Vanilla Life
I’ve had some wonderfully random kinky fun times lately. Beatdown birthdays, Sabbat, even Tryst back in July. Even though I don’t get to play nearly as often as I like – even at home – I accept that this is mainly due to a crazy busy life: work, kids, relationships, daily business, blah, blah, blah. [...]
But I’m only standing sort of close to the train tracks…
Sometimes not taking care of yourself is the same thing as self-harm. I know, I know, this seems like an obvious statement. But when things are bad and you’re a control freak and everything feels beyond your control and you start controlling things like whether or not you take your medication or avoid drinking water [...]
Time Out
I need an interpersonal relationship time out. I am exhausted from all the pissiness, drama, processinig, negotiating, hand-holding, discussing, venting, explaining, uphill-battling against codependency – all while making sure the kidlet has brushed her teeth and had a story before bed. Exhausted, hear me? Utterly. Can someone please drive me back to the crazy house [...]
Triggerland
I hate it when a button gets pushed. I hate it when I’m going along, doing my own thing, having a perfectly lovely day, and all someone has to do is say the wrong thing or use the wrong tone or lookit me sideways, and BAM. There’s no going back, no erasing the moment. It’s [...]
