I had therapy today. (Surprise!) Seems like I am always in therapy. Criminy – what other person do you know who actually has to see two different therapists, huh? Sometimes I feel just that extra shade of crazy. Anyhoo… My therapist R – we’ll just call him my male therapist to differentiate him from J, [...]
In which the you-know-what hits the fan of my life…
I’m a bit mad at myself for not posting sooner. Life has been chaotic, but when is in not, eh? I started this blog with intention, and I will not see it end with anything less than intention. So no more slacking off and avoiding posting, even in the chaos. I will try not to [...]
Work
I feel exhausted lately, like everything in life is taking 5 times more energy than I have to expend. Like most important things in my life, I am of at least two simultaneous minds about this. On the one hand, I look at my life pre-November-breakdown, and I see the amazing pace I kept up [...]
Triggerland
I hate it when a button gets pushed. I hate it when I’m going along, doing my own thing, having a perfectly lovely day, and all someone has to do is say the wrong thing or use the wrong tone or lookit me sideways, and BAM. There’s no going back, no erasing the moment. It’s [...]
Dreams
A few nights ago, I had a dream about my grandparents house. Dreaming of their house is not an unusual phenomenon for me. It’s where the worst of the abuse happened, and many of my nightmares are set somewhere in their basement, garage, or back yard. This particular dream was different, however. To begin [...]
Testing, testing
It’s 9:45 and I’m already in my Chip-N-Dale fuzzy pajamas. Here is the real test. I’ve created this blog, but can I really keep it up? When everything sucks, and I’ve spent the day crying, and I just want to pop an Ambien and crawl into bed and make the world dissolve, can I seriously [...]
Intelligent Survivorship
One of my missions since starting a blog has been to create a truly kick-ass blogroll. Since I am tackling such a variety of topics in my own writing, I want to help give voice and make connections for others dealing with multiple issues. In addition, I want to help connect the dots. Yes, there [...]
The Intendeds
So I have a kick-ass therapist. I know for sure we are doing the whole therapy thing right because I totally have that transference thing going on with her. Yeah, yeah, I know she’s human, but don’t remind me. Clearly she has some extrasensory ability to peer into my soul and understand precisely what is [...]
