So my therapist called me, for lack of a better term, an “alpha submissive”. This phrase has been stuck in my head for the last two weeks since she uttered it, rumbling around bumping up against a lot of other kink related thoughts I’ve been having lately. I want to claim it somehow, but it [...]
The Bush Administration In My Brain
I had therapy today. (Surprise!) Seems like I am always in therapy. Criminy – what other person do you know who actually has to see two different therapists, huh? Sometimes I feel just that extra shade of crazy. Anyhoo… My therapist R – we’ll just call him my male therapist to differentiate him from J, [...]
In which the you-know-what hits the fan of my life…
I’m a bit mad at myself for not posting sooner. Life has been chaotic, but when is in not, eh? I started this blog with intention, and I will not see it end with anything less than intention. So no more slacking off and avoiding posting, even in the chaos. I will try not to [...]
8 much? Age player vs. Inner child
Therapy has it’s own cliches. ‘Remember to breathe.’ ‘How do you *feel* about that?’ ‘You must embrace your inner child.’ Most of them make me want to punch someone in the face. There’s nothing I hate more than a therapist who can’t think enough outside of the box to figure out what will help me, [...]
Feeding the need
[Disclaimer: This post contains an explicit discussion of BDSM and kink related activities. If this is not your cup of tea or you may be potentially triggered by this type of content, read at your own risk. Don't say I didn't warn you.] Let’s talk about kink. Or rather, let’s talk about my kink. (Ah, [...]
Testing, testing
It’s 9:45 and I’m already in my Chip-N-Dale fuzzy pajamas. Here is the real test. I’ve created this blog, but can I really keep it up? When everything sucks, and I’ve spent the day crying, and I just want to pop an Ambien and crawl into bed and make the world dissolve, can I seriously [...]
Intelligent Survivorship
One of my missions since starting a blog has been to create a truly kick-ass blogroll. Since I am tackling such a variety of topics in my own writing, I want to help give voice and make connections for others dealing with multiple issues. In addition, I want to help connect the dots. Yes, there [...]
The Intendeds
So I have a kick-ass therapist. I know for sure we are doing the whole therapy thing right because I totally have that transference thing going on with her. Yeah, yeah, I know she’s human, but don’t remind me. Clearly she has some extrasensory ability to peer into my soul and understand precisely what is [...]
