I’ve had the lyrics to this song swirling around in my head the last few days, since I heard it on the radio: I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing Just praying to a god that I don’t believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it [...]
Even if things get heavy, we’ll all float on… right?
Badkaophfwpoan!!!!!!! I couldn’t figure out how to even start posting, so I made something up. This blog may take a dramatic turn – if I can just get myself to start using it- from fully formed thoughts and mini-essays, to brain dumping. Oh well, it’s my damned blog anyway. I have a brand new king-sized [...]
Threesome
There are still moments in my life that are magical. Friday night, S and A and myself decided to spend the evening together. It’s been a long time since we’ve done that, longer than I can remember. We headed into town and met a couple of friends at the local gay bar for an evening [...]
Going Under
I arrived home at 6 AM this morning, watching the first rays of the sun pop up from behind the horizon. I spent all of last night checking my wife K into the psychiatric unit of the university hospital, so sadly there was not enough light in that sunrise to brighten anything for me this [...]
Time Out
I need an interpersonal relationship time out. I am exhausted from all the pissiness, drama, processinig, negotiating, hand-holding, discussing, venting, explaining, uphill-battling against codependency – all while making sure the kidlet has brushed her teeth and had a story before bed. Exhausted, hear me? Utterly. Can someone please drive me back to the crazy house [...]
Don’t Tread on Me (Unless I Ask)
So I seem to have reached my first case of blogger’s block. It’s not so much that I have nothing to say – hell, I always have something to say. It’s more that I’ve reached that place where I’m bumping up against my intendeds again (see The Intendeds). Its been a stressful interpersonal week, where [...]
Absence makes the mind grow fuzzier
I’ve been back home a little over 24 hours. N and I went to Austin to visit some good friends; we were there from last Wednesday through yesterday morning. It was a big trip, full of lots of mommy/daughter time, and time spent out of doors enjoying the 70 degree Texas weather in contrast to [...]
The S-E-X Post
Let’s talk about sex, baby. Let’s talk about you and me… and her, and him, and them. OK, now that that song is irredeemably stuck in your head, I’ll tell you what the hell I’m rambling on about. Welcome to my sex life… Sex is often… umm, complex for a trauma survivor. There are a [...]
The Great Poly Family Experiment
On February 1st, my family moved into a brand new 3-bedroom house in small town just outside of Madtown. Current residents: me (38), my daughter N (8), my wife K (40), my girlfriend S (30), her boyfriend A (28), and two rambunctious cats – Echo and Coal (somewhere around 25-30 in cat years, I think). [...]
