I haven’t been on for awhile. Last time I posted, someone responded with an… aggressively negative comment. It threw me for a loop and made me feel scared to expose myself further, even in my own virtual home. I didn’t understand their hostility and why it felt necessary to them to direct it at me, [...]
F*CK (or In Which I Realize Life Is Harder Without Friends)
Everything seems upside down lately. Things in my life have done a 180 turn, which was I think maybe was supposed to make me happy, but instead I just feel completely discombobulated and without earth under my feet. I’ve thought of a million things to blog about this week, and haven’t had a damned minute [...]
But I’m only standing sort of close to the train tracks…
Sometimes not taking care of yourself is the same thing as self-harm. I know, I know, this seems like an obvious statement. But when things are bad and you’re a control freak and everything feels beyond your control and you start controlling things like whether or not you take your medication or avoid drinking water [...]
Going Under
I arrived home at 6 AM this morning, watching the first rays of the sun pop up from behind the horizon. I spent all of last night checking my wife K into the psychiatric unit of the university hospital, so sadly there was not enough light in that sunrise to brighten anything for me this [...]
Work
I feel exhausted lately, like everything in life is taking 5 times more energy than I have to expend. Like most important things in my life, I am of at least two simultaneous minds about this. On the one hand, I look at my life pre-November-breakdown, and I see the amazing pace I kept up [...]
Testing, testing
It’s 9:45 and I’m already in my Chip-N-Dale fuzzy pajamas. Here is the real test. I’ve created this blog, but can I really keep it up? When everything sucks, and I’ve spent the day crying, and I just want to pop an Ambien and crawl into bed and make the world dissolve, can I seriously [...]
Intelligent Survivorship
One of my missions since starting a blog has been to create a truly kick-ass blogroll. Since I am tackling such a variety of topics in my own writing, I want to help give voice and make connections for others dealing with multiple issues. In addition, I want to help connect the dots. Yes, there [...]
