I’m nursing my wounds today. And by nursing, I mean succumbing to the spacieness, the involuntary “Ow!” that comes out of my mouth every time I move the wrong way, hydrating and eating comfort food. Every part of me above rib level is muscle-sore, bruised, or both. Scalp, ears, jaw. I have a bruise in [...]
Trigger Me, F*ck Me (or About Last Night…)
I’m in heat again. Anyone who reads my writing regularly will probably get to know my cycle just as well as I do. I’m learning to embrace the roller coaster ride that is my week of ovulation. It’s not like I wasn’t promiscuously-inclined to begin with – might as well have a good excuse. I [...]
Well and Truly…
More and more, I’m becoming a writer. Which means more and more I write about sex. This is what happens when I write a blog post about how horny I am this week… I know she’s read my post; I get a single word text early in the evening – “Damn.” Put the kid to [...]
Kitty in Heat
I am in love with my smartphone. As far as I am concerned, it can do almost anything, short of picking my kid up from school and cooking her dinner. In the few weeks that I’ve had it, “I wonder if there is an app for that?” has become a regular utterance in my daily [...]
Just Give Me Something I Can Stand On
Like my name(s) suggest, I am rarely going down in flames in one aspect of my life without something new hatching in the other corner. Amidst the smoking ruins of my marriage, S and I have finally found quiet still spot to decide what’s important to our relationship going forward. After the nuclear meltdown that [...]
Alpha Submissive
So my therapist called me, for lack of a better term, an “alpha submissive”. This phrase has been stuck in my head for the last two weeks since she uttered it, rumbling around bumping up against a lot of other kink related thoughts I’ve been having lately. I want to claim it somehow, but it [...]
Hunger
I’m hungry. I’m craving cherries. Ripe, round and firm on my tongue, soft where my teeth puncture. Sweet. Staining my lips bloody red. I am eating them right now, too quickly for them to last, but with a voracity that speaks of other cravings. Because also… I’m craving sex. I am a pillow queen of [...]
My Vanilla Life
I’ve had some wonderfully random kinky fun times lately. Beatdown birthdays, Sabbat, even Tryst back in July. Even though I don’t get to play nearly as often as I like – even at home – I accept that this is mainly due to a crazy busy life: work, kids, relationships, daily business, blah, blah, blah. [...]
Threesome
There are still moments in my life that are magical. Friday night, S and A and myself decided to spend the evening together. It’s been a long time since we’ve done that, longer than I can remember. We headed into town and met a couple of friends at the local gay bar for an evening [...]
